Shameless Self Promotion

I am the Queen of the Universe, bow down before me! 

Wait, what do you mean I didn't get the job?  I have all the qualifications!  I am the Queen of my home, why not the rest of the universe?  Oh fine, then be that way! 

I'll just stay the Queen of the Neuferland Zoo and you will still bow down before me when you come into my home!

What?  What do you mean you won't bow down before me?  It's my ZOO!  Oh fine, then at least go check these links below and buy something if anything catches your eye! And spread the word to all your friends, family, enemies, frenemies, total strangers, twitter feeds, facebook friends, myspace friends and anyone else you can think of, kay? :)

For now I will forgive your insolence in not bowing down to my greatness but don't push my patience too far! :)

As you can probably tell, I'm feeling a little better.  I still have moments and sometimes days, like yesterday, I was just on edge for no real reason but I have good people who help remind me about the important things in life, like my kids, my health, my well being.  It's all good and will continue to be that way. 

As for a job, while I probably won't be getting a call for Queen of the Universe anytime soon, I am still looking.  It's not easy, between my back and my inability to either sit nor stand for long periods or not being able to pick up more than 20 pounds without it screaming bloody murder at me, it makes the pickings slim and then I'm competing with 50 other people for the same position.  It's disheartening when you put out 20 applications and don't even get one call back.  I'm over qualified for most jobs and don't even get a chance to explain but hey, whatcha gonna do?  Smile and move on to the next application.

I do miss the days of walking into a business, shaking someone's hand and talking to them face to face and that being a BIG part of your application before you even looked at a paper one.  Oh well, again, such is life.

I do have two stores over at Cafe Press, will possibly be adding more as I find more pictures and such.  If I can get these two up and running I might be able to upgrade them and get everything into one shop, that would be nice! :)

So please, go check them out, tell me what you think and for the two lovely people that actually read this blog, thank you! :)

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Positive Mental Attitude Page!

You all have a great day and if I don't see you before the weekend is out, Happy Memorial Day to everyone!!  Have a safe and exciting weekend!!!

Deannda

WHERE IN THE HECK HAVE YOU BEEN?

I know, I know!  I'm sorry!!! Okay, I'm not really but hey, I could take a stab at some sense of responsibility for not being her, right?  No?  Okay, I won't, I was busy, I have a life, I have things to do, like play Endless Blue Ocean and watch West Wing and look for a job.  Yeah, still looking for a job.  I know what job I would like to have right now after this past week.

The job that would be good for me is to go in and teach others what customer service is about.  I mean, seriously, in this poor economy and people hanging onto their money more than ever, you would think that customer service would be a pretty high priority to most businesses since new business is almost non-existent and repeat business is your biggest money maker right now.  But still, for some businesses it would seem they not only take the attitude that the customer is never right but dang-it I think I'll humiliate them at the same time, just for kicks and giggles!  Which reminds me, I need to make a call to Radio Shack in the mall, be right back.

Okay, I'm back.  Now the reason I called them is because while "technically" they didn't do anything wrong, they followed policy and did what they were supposed to do, it was the "way" they handled the situation at hand.  I won't go into details but let's just say because one person didn't have the common sense and decency to apologize to my daughter, she no longer wants to shop there.  Now there was no real reason for him to apologize since he didn't do anything wrong, he was merely following set rules and regulations but when you have a 14 year old teenage girl at your counter, very upset and distraught over something, the first words you should utter are, "I'm sorry....." followed by why you can or cannot do as she is requesting.  Every other store they went into with the problem had an apology and sympathy for the situation, every store but Radio Shack.  This upset Ellie and she noticed it.  It made a difference to her and how she views that store now.  I just talked to "Bob" (yes, his real name) and explained what happened and told him that while the guy was just doing his job, there could have been a little more sympathy on their part.  He agreed 100%, said he would talk to his staff and told me to tell Ellie that from now on she was to ask for him and he would make sure she was taken care of.  That is good customer service. 

Another example of good customer service was the Comfort Inn we stayed in while in Pittsburgh.  I wrote a letter explaining about our bad experience in the restaurant the last night and my poor experience during check out (was never asked how my stay was and even when I brought up the restaurant experience, nothing from the desk clerk). 

I wrote an email to the manager and explained my experience and why I felt it was important for these issues to be addressed.  She emailed back that not only is she refunding our restaurant charge but she's also using my letter as a tool during their next customer service training session. 

I go around, I watch, I listen and I think to myself, "You know, the customer is NOT always right, but you need to make them think they are so they won't leave and take their business elsewhere."  I watch sales people in stores and I just want to walk up and say, "Here, let me show you how to finish this sale."  Or watch customer service in action and so want to step in and apologize for the store when I see the customer getting more and more upset yet the employee is doing nothing to temper the situation.

Maybe that will be my first big book, "The Customer Is NOT Always Right! - You just have to make them think they are."  Trademark and copyright symbols here. :)

Our Spring Break

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First, I am still doing my Wii Fitness stuff, just not the 30 day challenge right now, making a few of my own routines and also finally was able to hook up the second remote and tonight I challenge Ellie and James at some very simple routines (all upper body right now) and I was very proud of James, he held his own and even beat me on the hitting the boxing heavy bag.  That's my boy!

 

Ellie had to work at keeping up and when we were done she said her arms were so tired that she could barely feel them.  Well girl, that's what happens when you don't work out with your momma like she told you too! :)

 

As for the trip.  We had a great time!  Left Elmira, arrived in Pittsburgh, found the motel very easily and the first thing the kids did was get those swimsuits on and hit the pool.  The next day we went to the Zoo and had a great time!  Got there first thing and walked all over the place.  The best part is that I never got tired or out of breath!  Yeah me!

 

We had Ellie's BFF Trinity with us and you have to understand these two have a very special relationship.  They have know each other going on 10 years and there are no secrets, no walls between them at all.  They fight like sisters and love like sisters.  Well, while at the zoo I swear their influence was being felt by some of the animals.  First the gorillas, there were two of them that just reminded all of us of them.  The bickering, the love, the teasing, it was great to watch.  And then the polar bears started up, it was hilarious!  We had a really good time and when we first walked into the aquarium area I swear Ellie forgot to breath for a moment.  She was just so taken by the huge tanks and the beautiful fish.  And then she got to pet a Mantra or Sting Ray, to watch her was so sweet.  She wants to be a marine biologist and I saw that in her during this trip.  Then the tank with the Black Tip Reef sharks, White Tip Sharks, Zebra Sharks and Shovelhead Sharks.  She just sat and watched.  We moved along to the tunnels and when that first Sand Tiger Shark swam up we all caught our breath and just were awed by the beauty of this creature.  The water was really murky because of the change of weather and seasons and they said it would probably be clear again in a week but we could see them just fine since they kept swimming right by the glass.  It was difficult getting Ellie out of that tunnel, LOL!

 

After that I came out and was looking for Ellie and Trinity who had headed down the hill and I hear this little voice calling, "MOMMY!! MOMMY!!!"  I didn't think much of it until I turned around and saw a woman come out of the tunnel and standing there looking like she was going to cry.  I walked over to her and asked if she was okay.  She said she had gotten separated from her son and had no idea which direction he went.  I told her I heard someone calling from down the hill and we headed down there.  She went ahead and I saw a golf cart with some zoo workers and told them what was going on.  I was very impressed how quickly they organized and got the search going.  I saw Ellie and Trinity and asked if they had seen him and they said there was a little boy over by the big playground looking for his mom.  Turned out it was him.

 

The mom, Julie, was so happy to find him but then couldn't get him to leave the area.  I asked James to watch Blake, her son and told her to just come and sit and breath for a moment.  We talked a little bit and then I looked at her again and she looked so sad and scared.  I asked her, "Do you feel really bad right now?"

 

"Yeah, I do, I can't believe this happened."

 

"I know how you feel.  Like you are the worst mom in the world and what ever made you think you could raise a kid, right?"

 

"Exactly!  How do you know?"

 

"Let me tell you a little story about a bad mom..........." and I proceeded to tell her the story of when Melissa was a baby and how I locked her in the house and she had pulled down her bottles and cut herself and how I ended up calling the police to break into my house and how I shoved the cop aside to find my baby covered in blood and called my mom to come take her away because there was no way I was ever going to be able to do this.  I told her about the time I lost Melissa in a Target, right by the front doors and how they found her in the back by a Lion King display and when Terry lost her by the dyke that was almost overflowing with spring runoff.  And then I told her that despite our best efforts to totally mess this kid up, she's now a beautiful 17 year old Senior who is going to graduate this June.

 

I let her know she's not alone, she's not the first and certainly won't be the last for this to happen to.  She felt a little better when I got done talking.  But Blake was still refusing to budge from the playground area.  So I asked if I could bribe him with pudding.  "Sure, he didn't eat breakfast so he might just go for that."

 

He did, we all went down and had a snack and then started walking out together but then got separated when Blake went one way and we were going the other.  Well after about a minute we heard, "JAMES!!! WAIT FOR ME!!!"  Blake realized he lost James, his new buddy and had to come find us!

 

They were so sweet, I gave her my card and told her to email me so I could send the pictures of them that I took but I haven't heard from her. :(

 

So, anyway, after that, it was our intention to find the Aviary and see the birds.  Well, the directions sucked that we got from MapQuest and I got totally lost in downtown Pittsburgh BUT did end up in Carnegie and we found the Science Center there and had a blast there instead.  They had a robot display going on and a Sports Center next door.  It was a great way to finish off our day.  And I even managed to find our way back to the motel after getting lost again and going in the totally wrong direction, LOL!

 

That night we were deciding if we were going to head home or stay another night.  At first Ellie wanted to go to Gettysburg but that was at least 3 hours from where we were and kind of in the wrong direction of where I wanted to go.

 

So I got online and realized that Cleveland was only 2 hours away and we could go to the Zoo and Science Center and Natural History Museum there for little or no cost.  I found a great room at a Super 8 in Westlake for only $50 a night so I booked it and the next morning we headed out.

 

Went to the Zoo first, which was really amazing.  The Rain Forest Exhibit and building were fantastic!  And the Zoo itself was really a lot of fun.  They have wonderful displays and the walking up and down the hills, again, difficult but not impossible!  If you look through the pictures you will find the sign for the Sky Walk and a picture from the top.  I walked that thing and I paid for it the next day but it felt great to be able to do it!

 

We then left there and found the hotel.  The pool they had was an outdoor one and not open yet so I was looking for something for us to do that evening.  Turns out we were literally 2 blocks from a Dave and Busters and after checking with the front desk to make sure it was truly kid friendly (the commercials are really geared to the adults) we headed over.  It was fantastic!  Great food, lots of games to play, something for everyone from age 7 to 47!

 

The next day we headed downtown and saw the Cleveland Indians home and then the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame (didn't go in, to expensive) and went through the Science Center.  And right across the street was the Home of the Cleveland Browns!  Lots of fun right there!  Then we headed out to the Museum of Natural History but again, thanks to really crappy directions from MapQuest, we got totally lost.   Spent the next 2 hours finding our way back and finally had to start heading home.  James was very sad but he understood.

 

Then on the way home, I completely missed the turn off I90, to head toward Jamestown, NY (something about that town that I always miss the turns) and ended up almost all the way to Buffalo!  But it was okay because the service area on the toll road was really cool.  You parked and then had to walk over this raised, enclosed sidewalk to the center area and you could stand there and watch all the traffic go under you.  James thought that was really cool.  We had dinner there and then I looked at the map and that's when I realized just how far off we were.  I was so ticked at myself!

 

I called Terry and got directions and found our way back down south and east towards home.

 

A great time was had by everyone and wonderful memories were made. 

 

Deannda
Was extremely glad to get home! :O)

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This was done by my daughter Melissa, a very powerful message! :)

Cat?

Cat likes going to the basement and hiding sometimes, which is not a big deal normally. She usually comes out when Ellie gets home and calls her so I don't think to much about it.

Well, today, Cat is officially banned from the basement forever. Why you may ask?

Well, today Ellie came home and went down to get her and she never responded. She does this occasionally. So Ellie comes upstairs to get a few chores done before heading out for the weekend then while in the kitchen starts freaking out.

"MOM!! There is something in the wall!!!"

"What? Quit goofing around!"

"I swear to God Mom, there is something in the wall behind the stove, you can hear it loud and clear."

So I go into the kitchen and sure enough you can hear something in the wall, it almost sounds like it's in the cupboard above the stove but you can hear it walking back and forth over the vent for the hood exhaust.

So, I go over there and tell Ellie there must be a really big squirrel in the wall (there is an opening in the siding on the second floor and I've seen squirrels going in there) so I figured it was a just a matter of time before they found their way into the walls.

I told Ellie I would call the landlord to have something done and to go get Cat from the basement. She goes back downstairs and starts calling Cat and then I hear it.

"Meow"

"CRAP!!! ARE YOU SERIOUS?"

"WHAT MOM? What is it?"

"IT'S CAT! SHE IS IN THE WALL!! JUST GREAT!"

So we start taking the hood down, hoping we can pull the vent out far enough that she can squeeze through and get out. Just as I get the last screw out to pull it out, no more noise. Nothing.

"Mom, where is she?"

"I don't know, start calling her again."

We called her for another 10 minutes with no response. Now mind you she's only been in the basement/wall for a couple of hours so I'm not overly concerned about starvation or dehydration but if she lost her footing and fell down or got stabbed by a nail or did encounter a squirrel and got into a fight................

"CAT!!! KIT CAT!!! PATTY WACK!!!"

"CAT!!!"

"mew"

"I hear her MOM!"

"WHERE?"

"It's very faint, it sounds like it's above us."

"No, NO, NO!!! She moved upstairs!"

Now, we live in the downstairs of a two story house, the upstairs is vacant, has been for a few months and there is a lock box on the door to the upstairs since the house is up for sale.

But, we have a connecting door to the stairs that go upstairs and luckily there is only a chain lock on it, which I can get undone. I get the door open and head upstairs.

We start calling her again and sure enough I can hear her in the walls between the kitchen and bathroom upstairs. Lovely.

BUT WAIT!!!

"ELLIE! BRING ME A PHILIPS HEAD SCREWDRIVER, NOW!!!!"

There is a panel in the wall where at one time they had to get into the pipes for the tub. There are two screws holding it in and I can hear her near that.

I told Ellie to keep talking to her so she didn't head out again as I frantically started unscrewing the screws.

Finally get the second one and remove the panel and "CAT!!!"

There she is, a little dusty but otherwise no worse for wear.

She wouldn't let Ellie hold her right away, turns out she really needed the litter box and thankfully didn't go in the walls!

So she is safe and sound once again and I set up a hook system on the inside of the basement door so we can close it behind us (it doesn't have a latch like a regular door, just a slide lock on the dining room side) and not have to worry about Cat going to the basement EVER AGAIN!

Deannda
On the upside I did manage to capture this picture tonight:

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SPOILER ALERT DWTS

WHAT THE HELL AMERICA?  YOU KEPT KATE AND SENT SHANNON HOME?   AND PAM IN THE BOTTOM TWO WITH SHANNON?  WTF?!?!?!?!?!

AND THE FACT THAT I CANNOT VOTE ON MY PHONES IS EVEN MORE IRRITATING!!!!!!!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  THIS SO SUCKS!!!!!!

About Yesterday

Yes, I got a little hot under the collar.  I was writing to release my fustration from being stuck in this classroom and despite my musings here, I still ended up going ballistic on everyone in here yesterday.  I should apologize for my behavior but I'm not going to at this point.  I have today and tomorrow to deal with this and then I'm done and if my tirade yesterday gets them to keep their mouths shut on politics and such, all that much better.  I will apologize for my behavior only tomorrow before I leave for the last time. 

On a more positive note, I measured myself this morning and I have lost an inch off my belly area!  WOOT!  I started another 30 day challenge this morning and upped the intensity to medium from easy and it was a bit harder but I did sweat and finished all the exercises!  So GO ME! 

Something I was thinking about on the way to school this morning and it's been discussed before is how hard it can be to express what you are really feeling online or in writing.  Sometimes you can't tell is someone is joking or being sarcastic and it boils down to once again, how people view things.  We can all look at the same exact situation and come up with different opinions and ideas about what happened or what is going to happen, even though we all looked at the exact same thing.  It's just human nature.

OMFG, JUST SHUT UP ALREADY!!!

Seriously, if one more person goes off about socialism and health care to me, I'm going to get in their face so damn fast and bitch slap them, I swear to what ever God you want to believe in.

Okay, I feel better now.  Why the outburst?  Because health care reform was needed in a desperate way in this country and we finally get a group of politicians who aren't afraid to stand up, be counted and say, "Let's start fixing this before it's too late!"

And for those of you who are boo hooing that you now have to get insurance through your employer but can't afford it, well, cut out the freaking coffee at Starbucks every morning, cut some other expenses and get over it.  I know how expensive it can be.  I had insurance through my employers for several years in the past and it's crazy expensive, but having had to go through a medical bankruptcy because we didn't have insurance and didn't qualify for any from the state or federal government I also know how devistating and expensive it can be when you have nothing and that was 17 years ago, I can't imagine what it would cost today.

If you read the information, you aren't being forced to get insurance.  You will only be fined if you don't have, need it and then try to get the government to pick up your tab through state plans or Medicaid, Medicare instead of having it in the first place. 

There are no death panels and if you truly believe that there will be, put your aluminum foil hat back on, head down to your basement and hide because otherwise the aliens are going to suck all your brain cells from you and leave you an ignorant idiot, oh wait, they already seem to have done that.  Wake up and grow up people!

I thank NYS for having a program in place for me and my kids that we can use so that I don't have to worry or make the decision if I can afford to take them to the doctor or now.  And now maybe their dad can get something since he can't get it through his employer since he only works part time and doesn't currently qualify for any insurance because of either pre-existing conditions (funky ticker) or income limits.  Terry is currently in the cracks of the system, has to pay for his own blood tests, medications and if something major were to happen to him, he'd be up a creek without a paddle once again.

I hope I can get a job that has insurance available for me and the kids, I hope I can get off the state insurance soon, I hope for a lot of things, but one of the biggest things I hope for is that ignorant people will wake up, realize we are NOT headed towards socialism and if the current health care system and insurance system we have in place is go DAMN GREAT, then why is more than 1/2 of America uninsured and unable to get insurance either due to outragous costs or pre-existing conditions?  Everyone deserves to be able to see a doctor, get help and be healthy!

And for the record, I just finished my first 30 day challenge with EA Fitness so I'm taking the baby steps to get myself back in shape and healthy.  What are you doing?

....Ugh......

Ugh!  I feel so crappy right now but not crappy, ya know?  I've got the beginning of a headache but not quite and I kind of ache all over, but not really.  It's so strange.  I started my period so I'm attributing part of the aches to that and I still did my EA Fitness this morning so part of it's from that I'm sure.  Just feeling a little wore down overall.  But I'm very proud of myself for still doing my exercises this morning despite feeling like doodoo.

Ellie had me practice her Spanish with her last night and this morning, I'm sure I completely mangled the words but it helped cuz she got a 100 on her quiz!  WOOT for her!  Very proud of her!

And Melissa had a bit of an emergency the other day that would have sent her over the edge in the past but she handled it with a maturity that I had not seen before and even a bit of humor!  WOOT for Melissa!  Very proud of her as well!

James is still the sweetest boy on earth and I'm always proud of him as well as his sisters! :)

Going to go home soon and just curl up on the couch and watch the kids do their EA Fitness and  then watch some TV and just relax tonight.  No running around, no appointments, just relaxing..........

Really, seriously?

I just have to comment on this whole Eric Massa mess and that is just what it is, a hot mess.  Last night he admitted to groping male aides but not in a sexual manner.  And admitted to having "tickle" fights with them and they piling up on top of him.  Made some comment to the tune of he just never really got out of Navy mode when he went to the Senate.

Okay, I had two brothers in the Navy and for some reason the idea of "tickle" fights happening on a ship just seem, well silly!

Many New Yorkers are ashamed to say they are from the state right now because of all the stuff going on, not me.  Since I'm not really from here, LOL!  But the truth of the matter is I'm just cracking up everytime Massa opens his mouth.  The guy is clearly lost and has not a clue.  Said he was to familier with his staff?  Really?  Seriously?  OMFG, even I know you don't do half the crap he did if you're in Washington.

And if he honestly thought he was going to "change" the way Washington works, in his freshman year and he was going to accomplish so much, really, seriously? 

I think what happened is he saw how much Hillary Clinton was able to do her first time in the Senate and for some odd reason thought he would be able to do the same or have the same power.  The difference between Hillary and Eric is pretty basic stuff.  She was a freshman senator with TONS OF POWERFUL connections when she walked into the door.  She had more power than most of the sitting senators simply because of her previous address, you remember the one, on Pennsylvania Avenue in DC?  Yeah, Massa walked in with nothing. Absolutely nothing to offer and thought he could just start making waves and doing whatever he wanted.  It doesn't work that way.

I've been told I can be clueless on how politics works.  I fully aware of how politics work but the only thing I can do about it is cast my vote on election day.  What happens in between elections, I will leave to the experts, I will write letters, make a phone call if needed if I see something that is truly important to me, but otherwise, let the machine work.

Okay, that's enough for now. :)

Totally Random thinking

Okay, on the way into school today I had stopped to get some water bottles (which I will return after school because I really don't need them) and was once again assaulted with The Bachelor and why he picked who he picked.  I have never watched this show, never intend to watch the show and could really care less to tell the truth but it's hard not to hear about it when everywhere you turn people are crying because he picked the wrong girl.  Now, I will admit to watching small bits during the final episode because I was trying to find out who was going to be on Dancing With the Stars but finally gave up because after about 30 seconds of the utter and complete crap that was coming out of everyone's mouth, I just DVR'd it and fast forwarded TO the commercials. 

But my thought is basically this, if you are constantly defending your actions and choices to just about everyone you meet, isn't that a bit of a red flag?  I mean seriously, when you have to shout out to the world, "I DID NOT MAKE A MISTAKE!" and still, no one is listening.......................I know someone like that personally and I made the same comment to them, "If everyone you know and love is telling you the exact same thing, people who don't even know each other or talk to each other but your friends and family are ALL SAYING THE EXACT SAME thing about your mate, doesn't that tell you something?"  But some people have to learn the hard way or maybe they just don't care.

Next random thought, Sandra Bullock!  YEEEEEEHAAAAAAWWWW!  She was wonderful last night.  I was so glad she won!  And the lady who won best director and best film, by the second Oscar you could tell she was just trying to stay on her feet and avoid either vomiting from nerves or fainting, LOL!  It was great!  And when Steve Martin and Alec Baldwin came out at the end and grabbed her I thought she was literally going to jump out of her skin, LOL!  She was just dazed, it was great to see. :)

Next randomness today, I applied for a civil service exam for a Beginning Clerical Worker position.  It's in May and we shall see how we do.  I want to pass and do well, but I don't want to be offered a job in another city or the big city for that matter.  But then again, at the rate this state if falling apart, I may not have to worry about it at all, LOL!  I swear, the whole NY Government is ready to implode on itself, it's rather fun watching, but sad at the same time.  I was accused, okay, to strong a word, I was thought to be innocent on the ways of politics but the truth is, I am very aware and just choose not to really get into that much unless it's something that really bothers me.  I watch, I listen, I laugh, I cry, it's all part of the game and we get our say on election day. 

Last random thought for today, optiplex gs650.

:( I didn't get the job

:(  Oh well, got the letter of rejection today.  I didn't expect to get it so it doesn't really bother me that much.  The interview was okay but kinda went south at the end and when I had walked out of there I had a feeling it was a basically blown deal.  So the Board of Elections will not be seeing my smiling face as a regular employee though I may still go check out the volunteer program for helping with the voters on election day.  I can still do that. :)

And I've been doing the EA Fitness 30 day challenge for 2 weeks now and my energy level is so much higher.  I try to do them in the morning before the kids get up and what a difference it makes in my day!  So far today I've done 3 loads of laundry, cleaned Melissa's room, James's room, swept and mopped the kitchen, bathroom and dining room, scrubbed down the bathroom, picked up the living room, ran the vac over the rugs, cleaned the couches, fed all the animals, gave them fresh water, gave Sammi and Lolli baths and now I'm gonna finish up the laundry, fix some lunch and then maybe just relax until James comes home, then I gotta run again! :)

So, no job yet, but the month is young, yes? 

Wow!

If you ever get a chance to go see Sesame Street Live, I highly reccommend it!  Terry and I took James today and he just about jumped out of his skin when Big Bird and Elmo came out.  It was more fun watching him than the show at times but the show was fantastic.

The message of friendship was very strong and supporting each other.  The songs and entire show was very upbeat and highly motivational.  James had a blast, I had a blast with James and Terry, well, let's just say he survived, LOL! :)

And three posts in one day!  WOW! :)

Oh and......

I got the corner to myself again, hehehe.  Evidently I bothered the woman next to me so much yesterday that she decided to move to another seat.  All I did was actually talk to the woman in front of me about kids and discipline and I think it really offended her that I would even "threaten" to spank my children in public (not that I ever had to actually follow through on it) but she is of the school, "YOU NEVER TOUCH THE CHILD" and as a result you have obnoxious children running the joint.  I don't think you should beat your children, I don't even like spanking but when you have tried every other tactic and they still are not listening and still misbehaving, a small tap on the butt gets their attention faster than anything. 

As for children who misbehave in public, you know the ones, the screaming, crying, throwing a tantrum kids and the parents just sit there and do NOTHING about it, do us all a favor. Pick up the child and remove them from the place of business.  Maybe you can handle a screaming child for more than 15 minutes, but I can't and believe you me that if you don't get that child under control and soon or remove that child from the situation that is causing that child to have a fit, therefore ruining everyone else's environment, then I will get the manager or owner and get your ass thrown out.

And for the managers, owners and people who let these people stay and do nothing until someone complains, if I do have to actually take my time to get up, find you and lodge a complaint, I can pretty much guarantee you that it will be the last time you see me.

Okay, done for now,  I get to go see Elmo Grows Up with my son today.  We have a date! :)

Why is it?

Everytime I think I want to have the "better" life, you know, the one where you have the beautiful home, the lovely friends, the social life, the one where everything is so wonderful, I get that dose of reality that either shows me just how NOT "beautiful" they are inside and it's all about appearances?  Funny how that works. 

Everytime I start getting a little too big for my britches as they say, try to be someone I'm not, I get reminded that I'm okay just as I am and who I am.  That I don't need to be one of the "beautiful" people, that I don't have to have the perfect home, the big yard and the fancy car.  That I'm extremely lucky to have what I do have, three great kids who don't drink, do drugs, stay out all night or skip school.  A soon to be ex-husband who is still extremely supportive and helpful in any way he can and in the grand scheme of things, I may be in the middle or lower middle on the ladder as they say but you know what?  I like it here, no grand expectations from me and I can enjoy what I have and appreciate who I am.

A friend recently wrote on Facebook:  "I am not always nice.  I am not always gracious. But dammit, I try to be kind."  Everyone should try to be kind.

Yeah ME!

Today was the first day since we started the EA Fitness 30 day challenge on our Wii that I was able to complete the ENTIRE workout, including squats!  WOOT!!! :)

I was sweating when I was done but I did it, even hit 9 out of 9 tricks on the inline skating on the first run!  I was the first one to be able to do all 9 tricks!  WOOT!!!!

I feel better about this and really feel motivated for the first time since starting.  It's a great feeling when you are able to complete an entire workout!  For the first time in my life I have broken the 300 pound barrier, not by much mind you but it happened and to me it's the wake up call to start moving more.  So now we are getting ready to go sledding, I will not go down the hill, but I will get outside and move.  SO I watch my baby and take pictures, cuz he's just so darn cute!!! :)

So I have to go now, you all have a great day!!!!

What was I thinking?

Today was a snow day.  So Ellie asked if a few friends could come over and I said, "Sure, your dad can pick them up on the his way home from work."

I forget just how much my nice quiet, sweet Ellie comes out of her shell when she's around her friends that she's really comfortable with.  But it was fun to watch at the same time.  To see her laughing and being silly and goofy was well worth all the noise.

Candice came by today as well and commented how nice the house looked.  Asked if I did any special cleaning and I told her, "Nope, this the result from our daily chore chart cleaning."  So it is working and I'm no longer afraid to have someone come to my house unannounced. :)

We have been doing our EA Sports Workouts, all four of us, we are doing the 30 day challenge and today I only skipped over the backward lunges, my knees just wouldn't take it.  But I have noticed, that here on day four of the challenge, it was a little easier than day one!  WOOT! :)

Now for the follow up letter

I went, I talked, I have no clue how it went.  I didn't get a good nor a bad vibe from the interview.  I got along very well with both of the interviewers.  I asked intelligent questions, I gave, I would hope, intelligent answers and let them know I was open to light traveling if needed.

I did hit a very positive note with one or both of them when one of them said first, "If you don't vote, don't complain."  I couldn't have agreed more, maybe I agreed to much but I am a strong believer that if you don't participate in the election process then you have no business complaining about it afterwards.  It's as simple as that.  You do have a voice, you can make a choice.

I will be taking Melissa back there this afternoon to register her to vote since she will be old enough to vote this year and they forgot to give me a registration form before I left.

I will write my follow up letter as well, get it checked by the teachers and hope for the best! :)

Here's a clue, it's free today only

When you are talking to me or anyone else on the phone for that matter, and for some reason the phone disconnects, be it your fault accidently or theirs, when you reconnect with that person, the first thing you should do is APOLOGIZE for any accidental disconnection, especially if you are a business and I am a customer and I CALL YOU back to let you know that I think you hung up on me.  The first words out of your mouth should be something to the effect of, "I'm so sorry about that, not sure why it disconnected but I certainly did not mean to accidently hang up on you." 

It should not be, "I didn't hang up on you."

"Well, yes you did, my phone went dead and it wasn't my phone that disconnected."

"I DID NOT HANG UP ON YOU."

Oh, now you did it, I was already fustrated that you called me to tell me my insurance wouldn't pay for my eye exam and I couldn't find my card to have you verify it and then even if it was an accident, the hang up occured on your end and then you're going to argue with me?  ARE YOU INSANE?

Empire Vision in Big Flats just lost a loyal customer (been going there for several years) due to one person's inability to handle a simple customer service problem.  A simple apology at the very beginning of my conversation would have stopped me in my tracks, I would have kept my son's appointment and would have brought my daughter in to you next month when she needed a new pair of glasses.  But now, because you were rude, condesending and uppity with me, I don't care if my daughter's Godfather works there, you lost me as a customer and my children.  There is more than one vision center in this town.

I may end up more involved than I thought

Previously on Mad Thoughts I wrote that once I placed my vote my involvement with the local, state and federal government was pretty much a mute point unless it either directly involved me or was concerning an issue that is near and dear to my heart.  Well, tomorrow I have an interview with the Board of Elections and I am very excited that I might get to be a part of the process that does help this country govern and run.  I've been doing a little homework and I would like to really have a shot at this job.  It sound interesting, challenging and a really good fit for us as a family.  So wish me luck, send me good thoughts, pray for me if that's what you do, anything that will help me get this job would be appreciated! :)

Poor James

Kid has the whole week off and he's sick. :(  He has a sore throat and is starting to lose his voice.   But something that makes him feel better is that his sisters have to go back to school this week!  Haha!

On a really positive note I got an interview with The Election Board for a job!  I'm very excited.  I think I'll go get my hair trimmed up this weekend and look for some new clothes to wear, mostly under garments, things to lift, smooth, you know ;)

So we are just kicking back this week and relaxing, healing and OMG, I really hate these Time Warner Digital Phone commercials.  Some of them are sorta cute but for the most part are just irritating.  I had digital phone and while it's nice, what's not nice is when the power goes out, guess what?  Yep, no phone service, not even 911, nothing.  That's why I just have the cell phones now, why pay for a land line at all when you have a cell phone already?

So anyway, you all have a nice day! :)

I feel so lazy

I have been slacking off big time on the writing.  I just feel so lazy!  Not physically lazy as much as mentally lazy these days.  Physically I've been busy, even forced myself into the mall over the weekend, TWICE to spend some one on one time with each of my girls.  Saw a couple of movies and took them to dinner.  One at a time, first Ellie on Saturday and then Melissa on Sunday.  On Wednesday I'll probably do the same thing with James.  It wasn't too bad in the movies, found seats that were open and not a lot of people around both times so I was able to really enjoy the movies.

Saturday we went to Percy Jackson, The Lightening Thief.  It was good, really enjoyable, made me jump a few times and did make me laugh out loud as well.  Then on Sunday we went to see the Tooth Fairy.  Again, cute, funny and entertaining.  Duane Johnson is the only real man I know who could pull off a pink ballerina outfit and not look completely stupid, LOL!  And Julie Andrews and him on screen together was wonderful.  I can imagine what that set was like to work on! :)

And going to dinner afterwards, for a nation that's in a recession, there sure are a lot of people eating out.  I mean everywhere we went it was almost an hour wait, both nights.  Unreal!  But it's a good thing too I guess.

Today is a  lazy day.  I need to write another article for the Examiner column, am going to try to get that done today.  Going to write about a charity event that is happening later this week.  But mostly just going to kick back and relax. :)

Crowds? Not for me, thank you

I really should check with someone or figure this out because my inability to deal with crowds is getting worse.  I really hate being around more than just my family anymore, which is really strange, I used to love going out, having fun with people, being a part of something larger.

I don't know if it's because I no longer feel the need to be in the middle of things (this used to be a real issue, COULD NOT stand the thought of being left behind) or if it's something more serious.  I just know I hate being in a room with more than 4 or 5 people unless it's a really large room.

The kids know that to get me to stay at the mall for more than an hour if it's crowded is close to a miracle and don't even ask me to take you there during the holidays.  And movies?  Only if they've been out for a while and the crowds have diminished.  If I take them during an opening week, another miracle.  Luckily they are old enough now I can send them with their friends and stay home.

I don't mind it as much if we are out in the open, large open spaces, outside are okay, or really big arenas are mostly okay, again as long as it's not standing room only.  I just don't know anymore if it's just old age or something in my head.  Guess I should have it checked out at some point, heh?

Hello there!

What a day!  Yesterday was a snow day, with actual snow!  Not a lot mind you, but we did finally get some snow that lasted longer than 24 hours, this might last all of 48 if it stays cold enough!  WOOHOO!

Today was back to normal.  Big yawn!  On the plus side we got a new (used) couch today, so all the couches that had the bed bugs are GONE!  The last one was completely wrapped up in plastic and duct tape but it still feels good knowing it's out of the house.  Next will be the mattresses that were invested.  But for now, the couches will do. :)

Also on the big yeah side, James got a new Ironman suit.  He paid for it himself or at least he will.  He borrowed the money from Terry and agreed to pay him back a little each week out of the money he earns for chores.  And I got my WACOM tablet!  Took me a bit to get it up and running right but when it does, WOOT! :)  I had to find and download a driver that would work with my system but I got it working.  I think I may get another one for Melissa for her drawing.  She really is good with just a laser mouse, imagine if I put an actual pen in her hand! :)

Otherwise, the world is quiet, the day is long and the room is cold, need to go put the heat up a bit.  Later alL!

Here we gooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!

What a day so far!  I got up early to get cleaned up since I have a mock interview in about 20 minutes and got out my good clothes, even bought a new pair of black pants for such occasions.  Put on my brand new purple top that I ordered over Christmas that my Mommy paid for (THANKS MOM!) as my present along with some other great clothes.  Went to stop at KMart for some knee high nylons, looked down and noticed that one of the buttons had fallen off my shirt!  *sigh*  "REALLY?!?!?!"

So I ended up buying a sweater, actually two sweaters, earrings and nylons for around $30.  I NEVER spend this type of money on myself, I can think of several other things that are more important, but I make myself feel better by knowing I got both sweaters on sale for about 1/2 off, so that's a plus! RIGHT?

So I am getting ready for this mock interview and I always have one problem with a question that seems ever so popular now.  "Tell me any bad qualities or negative aspects about yourself."

How are you supposed to answer that?  I mean honestly, I grew up in the time where you really pushed the positive, down played the negative or sugar coated and now you want me to tell you about my bad qualities?

Okay, here's one, I'm fat.  Yep, you heard me, I'm a big old fat mamma!  Do I plan on staying this way?  No, but it may affect my job if you require me to do a lot of physical work from the very beginning.  If we are just talking about a desk job, it shouldn't be a problem but if there's is a lot of physicality, then we have an issue.

Here's another one, I personally think this is a positive trait, but considering it has put some people off in recent jobs, it must just be me that thinks that way and that is I can be demanding in what I expect from my co-workers and anyone I am supervising.  Not in a negative way, mind you, but I have high standards when it comes to work and I expect others to have or follow those same standards at times.  I am always positive with co-workers and find positive ways to motivate them but because I can be so expectant of others, it has come across as a bit agressive at times.  OOOOOOOooooo, I like that one!

I have to say one thing here about my parents.  Bless their hearts and my mom may just say she's being honest when she doesn't consider herself a success, I still disagree.  She and my father taught me good values, how to respect others, how to work hard, how to always give your best each and every day that you work, no matter if you are the guy sweeping the floors or the person at the top of the management chain, walk away from work each and every day and know you have earned your money and you gave your job you best effort and attention.  So thanks Mom and Dad for the lessons and work ethics and values.

So, I'm going to go now, comb my hair, take a whiz and get ready for this interview thingy.  Wish me luck! :)

(Not the best pic, but you get the idea. :))

One time only

I know, I know, it’s been forever and a day since I posted. What can I say? Not much evidently, LOL! I’ve been lazy, just not really wanting to write and just wanting to relax and chill out. But something has been in the back of my mind as of late and you all can thank my mother for the following.


Now, I love my mother, I respect the very loving hell out of my mother for everything she has been through, survived and sets such a strong example for us kids to follow and have given us some very big shoes to fill but the truth of the matter is that I will probably never be as successful as my mother has been in her life and I’m okay with that. I have thought about this before and the truth of the matter is you can succeed at whatever you want to, IF you want to, that is the key.

Our society has become so focused on success and being a part of something bigger that for some of us who may not be as motivated or honestly care as much sometimes ends up feeling like slackers for the lack of a better word at this moment in time. I was taught a rule by my Grandma Smith when I was younger and that was basically that there are three subjects you want to avoid public discussion unless you are willing to either start an argument or be ready for one hell of a debate. Those three subjects are religion, politics and sex. Everyone has different opinions and unless it’s something you are really passionate about and truly think you can get others to listen to your opinion and change theirs, these are subjects best left silent.

Now, the weird part is that with the exception of religion, these subjects were never really talked about in our household while I was growing up. Religion was covered by my Grandma Smith and the other two; I can honestly say I do not remember being discussed either in a friendly debate or otherwise while I was growing up. So I was basically left to form my own opinions from what I experienced, heard and learned from several sources, school, news, or work.

Now, I do have opinions about all three of these subjects mind you and I’m going to share them this one time only and then as far as I’m concerned if you want share yours then you are more than welcome to do so but I can tell you right now, don’t expect me to suddenly change my mind on everything I have figured out after all these years. I am more than willing to listen to your opinions and take them into consideration but remember, we are all wired differently and sometimes we have to just agree to disagree on what we believe.

Let’s start with religion, this is a difficult discussion for me because quite honestly, the truth is, I believe there are forces at work in the universe that have some control in our lives, but do I believe in one God and one God only? No, not really. I know I DO NOT believe in the church system, pretty much no matter what religion you are talking about. A perfect example of this happened the other day when Ellie and I were in the car and I told her about something that happened to me at Tops. I had gone to the seafood department to get some salad, love that seafood salad, and the person behind the counter was a bit slow, physically slow, I’m sure the 300+ pounds on his frame did not help, I know it certainly doesn’t help me with speed. But that’s okay, I had time. I asked for a ¼ pound of the Neptune Salad and when he finally came back with the container he said, “So you want 2 pounds?”

“No, just ¼ pound, thank you,” I replied.

He said again, “No, you wanted 2 pounds.”

“No, I could never eat that much by myself, I’m the only one who eats it in my house.”

“I can see why,” he said.

I sat there for a second trying to figure out what he meant by that, considering I don’t know this person, he has no idea who lives in my house or anything about me. Then he said, “Because this stuff is horrible, I can’t stand it.”

Now when I told this story to Ellie she commented right after “I can see why,” comment with “OMG, how rude!” And then after the last comment he said, she said, “Oh, good save.”

I looked at her and said, “Now, see, there’s a perfect example of how people will see situations and interpret them differently. You thought I should be offended by the “I can see why” comment but in my eyes it was the last comment that offended me because he insinuated that I had bad taste. It’s like that in life; two people can watch a situation and see it from two completely different views because of what they believe or were taught.” Oh, and he was right about the salad, it wasn’t that good, I ended up tossing it.

It’s the same with religion; I once read on line that the Bible was written by man. Not by God, but by man or men in this case, I’m sure there was more than one author. And if you really wanted to dissect the Bible I’m sure you can find more contradictions than you could count in a lifetime. It is a book based on how a man or men saw situations. And I will guarantee you that should someone today see those same situations, they would have a completely different story to tell. Another good example of this is The Wizard of Oz. We all grew up with the L. Frank Baum version and with the epic motion picture but I dare you to read Wicked by Gregory Maguire and look at the originals the same way. He tells the story from the Wicked Witch’s point of view. He does this with a few other fairy tails and it’s fascinating to read and really stop and think about it from another angle. He makes you think twice about the childhood fairy tales you grew up with and gets you to open your eyes to another point of view.

It’s the same with religion, politics, and just about any subject. Everyone has their opinions and knows for sure just what is what. But then someone will come along with another point of view and if you listen with an open mind and an open heart you can learn to maybe adjust that thinking and expand and learn from them. So as far as religion goes, here is what I believe at this moment in time.

There is a God or Gods who sometimes play a hand in our fates, who make sure we are in certain places at certain times and that certain things happen. Some call it fate, some call it a coincidence, and some call it divine intervention. I call it Karma or fate. I believe in reincarnation and that where we are now, here on earth, is our hell, and when we finally get it right, we get to move on to the next plain of existence, not necessarily heaven per say but a more free spirit until we reach the final plain of existence where we get to put into play things that need to happen. I believe in spirits and ghosts and yes, I do believe in good and evil and that is all part of the spirits who play a part in our lives. But in the end, it is us, who make the final decisions if we are going to do the right thing or not. Human beings have moral compasses and should we choose to follow them, great, if not, then it was your choice, not anyone else's so don't go blaming your parents or teachers or friends for your decisions that don’t work out to your best advantage.

Now, on to politics. I really hate talking politics, as it follows the same vein as religion. Everyone will see things differently, no matter what you do. I’m not an extremely politically active person, probably never will be. I listen to the candidates when elections come up, I look at their history if they have been at the job but honestly, once they are elected, unless it’s a cause that is really close to my heart, I really don’t care what they are doing most of the time. For the 8 years that Bush was in office, he screwed this country up in more ways than imaginable. He got us into a war we had no business being in, he wasted and spent a surplus that Clinton left behind, he was unable to speak off the cuff without making a complete fool of himself, and I just personally could not stand the man. He left a mess, the economy tanked BEFORE he left office, it was his presidency that put this country in the financial mess it is now. And now everyone is saying President Obama is not doing what he promised. WHAT THE HELL DID YOU THINK HE WAS GOING TO DO? Come in and wave a magic wand and it would all be okay? For the LOVE OF GOD (if that’s what you believe) it’s only been a year! And to top it all off, his own party in the Senate and House have NOT backed him up like they could have/should have so just what did you think he was going to get done without his own party’s backing? Seriously? WHAT DID YOU EXPECT?

I am a registered Democrat but I don’t follow the party blindly, I’m not a liberal, I’m not conservative, I’m a realist. I see what isn’t working and if there is anything I can do to help fix it, I will. If our healthcare system broken? Not completely, but dang, it’s headed for intensive care and fading fast. I am grateful to be in a state (NY) where they do offer health care for families and kids and EVERYONE can get it, some for free, some at a cost, depending on your income. But the cost is completely affordable. And it’s good coverage. Because without it, my kids would not have anything, nor would I and as a result James wouldn’t get the help he needs, nor would my daughters. And when they become ill or injured, I don’t have to ask myself, “How serious is this?” No one should ever have to ask that question. EVER!

As for the pay czar, I say, “ABOUT DAMN TIME!” Payroll for some of these upper management positions is completely out of control and if you want bailout money from the government because you SCREWED up in the first place, you sure as hell should NOT get a bonus for screwing up! I wish I got a bonus for every time I screwed up, I would never have to work again.

As for the rights of gays in the military and concerning marriage and being able to make decisions for their life partners. HELL YES! There is no difference between a homosexual relationship and a heterosexual relationship. NONE! They love each other the same, they care for each other, and they should have the same rights as every other individual in the country. To tell them they are morally wrong, that’s your opinion and should have absolutely NOTHING to do with the legal rights they should be able to enjoy just like everyone else in this country. So take the religious aspect out of this and what do you have? People just like you and me who deserve the same respect and dignity that we all receive.

And for those who think your civil liberties are being taken away and you are being spied on and that they are watching your every move. Do us all a favor and step away from the television, Movie Theater or DVR and WAKE UP! Honestly, unless you have done something that warrants “the man’s” attention, they really could care less what you are doing as well. There are not chips in your clothes that can track you everywhere you go, there is no camera in the sky that is watching your every move and even if there was, do you really think they are watching you? Because if you do, then you have something to hide and you better put on your aluminum foil hat, draw the black shades and hide in your lead lined basement before they get you!

The final subject, sex. When done properly, it can be an orgasmic experience. When done improperly, it can be the most boring 5 minutes of your life.

So my advice to you is to get up, get out and enjoy your life. It’s too damn short in the larger scheme of things and while you should always pay attention to what is happening in the world out there with your government but unless you are wired to start a revolution or really become involved and be a shaker and mover, just enjoy what you have, live your life to the fullest and remember to tell those that mean the most to you that you love them daily and that it’s the last thing they always hear from you, because you just never know when it’s your time to move on to the next life or plain of existence or what ever it is that you believe in. Enjoy the fact that you can enjoy your life to the fullest and pretty much do what ever you want to and that it's not decided for you like some countries.

So Mom, I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH! And I LOVE MY KIDS, MELISSA, ELLIE & JAMES!!! :) You are the coolest kids a mom could ask for! :)

In conclusion I respectfully request from all my family and friends, please don’t bring these subjects up with me again, I have more important things to focus my energy and time on then debates of these nature. Things like where I’m going to find more Necco Sweethearts, the Dollar Tree ran out!!!! :) That and my kids, they are my main concern right now. :) Oh and don't start with how we are screwing up their future, everyone has said that for generations and yet, we all seem to get along just fine. Maybe that's a bit ignorant on my part which would explain why I can't stand myself sometimes, either that or I forgot to take a shower again. Who knows? Who honestly cares?

Really?

Okay, good day today.  It was a little rough after school but we all went to get school supplies and find doggie diapers for Lolli.  We all went, including Terry and he treated us to dinner at Bob Evans in Corning.  I convinced James to ask to speak to Bob at Evan's house, LOL!  We had a lot of fun but the best part was when Terry started telling the girls about the Spaghetti Factory and a picture he saw in the menu of the people picking the spaghetti noodles from the trees.  The next lines out of my girls' mouths had me laughing so hard, they both said, "You mean spaghetti doesn't grow in the ground?"  I asked them both if they were serious and they said yes.  They were totally serious and now believed that it grows on trees.  It took me several different approaches before I got them to realize that their dad was pulling their legs.  I was just in tears over this.  Then I felt bad that I have two teenage daughters who had no clue how spaghetti was made, LOL!

That is all for tonight, getting late. :)

I made it!!

It's not midnight yet!!!  Well, today was a good day, a so-so day and a *heh* you can keep it kind of day, so in all reality a regular day.  Found a job I actually want to apply for!  Yeah!  Now to get a resume together, that's the hard, sucky part, used to be so much easier.  But I am going to have to suck it up and get it done cuz the deadline for the application is Monday and tomorrow is the last day of school for this week unless I want to head up there for the night class.  Which I don't.

The so-so part was just general every day stuff.  And the sucky part was doing taxes.  I'm not getting near the refund I got last year so my hope to go to Montana trip this summer is not going to happen, which really sucks but hey, what you gonna do?  You gotta pay the damn bills and stuff otherwise they shut it all off and then were are you?  In the dark like a mushroom and being fed the same shit as the mushroom because it's all you can afford. 

I could go by myself just for my class reunion but I"m not sure who would hurt me more if I did, my kids or my mom for not bringing my kids, but then again, we can party more without the kids.....................LOL!  J/K, I wouldn't dream of taking a trip like that without my kids.  I just have to find my rich sugar daddy and soon dammit!  Guess I better actually start going out in public again, heh?

Well, I have got to get some sleep, I'm so tired and I have a ton of stuff to do tomorrow!  Later all!

New Month, no sleep

I just can't seem to get to sleep tonight, though I should really be trying since I am the ONLY one who has to go to school tomorrow!  Someone want to explain to me how that happened?  Yeah, I can't either.

Rough night tonight, Melissa is having privacy issues, didn't come right out and say she no longer wants to share a room with James but let me know how upsetting it is to her to have him get into her stuff all the time.  I know how she feels considering she did that to me for years.  Well, one thing led to another and before you knew it she was having a mini melt down.  On the positive side, I didn't have one with her!  Yeah!  First time for everything, I just let her basically vent, threw in a comment here and there and let her get it out of her system.

But I do think it's time I figured out some other sleeping arrangements.  I can't put her and Ellie in a room together as I know they would plot killing each other in their sleep so I think I shall move James out to the living room with me again and take it from there.  Give her some space and real privacy.  No clue how we are going to set this up but we will figure it out.

Dang, I did it again!

I missed a day! I was just so busy that I forgot about it for the moment and by the time I remembered, I was just to tired to think, sooooooooooooooo, sorry!

As for today, it was a good day.   Chores got done really early so we were able to go out and have a little fun.  Ellie spent most of the day at the mall with her friend, Terry took James home after he got his special toy that he had been saving up for and I stayed behind with Melissa at the mall and we had a really good time.  We laughed, we giggled, we talked.  It was really nice.

Right now I am home alone, it's my me time, I'm drinking Blue Hawaiian Margaritas and watching the original Superman movie with Christopher Reeve.  I got all four of them for a really good price, so it's a good night to just sit back, relax and enjoy a show. :)

You all have a good night too!

Wootie!!!!

Yeah Baby! I put up a new article on www.Examiner.com/Elmira and it appeared on the home page as most popular!  Yeah me!!! :)  And a BIG Yeah to my friends and family who have helped me get there!!!  WOOTIE!! (I don't have to pay Raggmopp for that one! :))

It will never be anything I make a lot of money at on that site I'm sure but it's great to have someplace to practice my more formal writing style.  Here I just type whatever spills out of my mouth, while there, I have to stop and really think about what I"m saying. :)

And right now there is a lot of noise coming from my left, Sammi is making some odd little noises while he sleeps or is that Monkey?  Nope, it's Sammi, LOL!  He's talking in his sleep, that is so cute!

So, just a short note tonight, I'm gonna crash early, too tired to think straight and I'm doing more backspacing than actual typing, argh!! :)

Spay Day 2010 Online Pet Photo Contest

Vote for Juniper at the Spay Day 2010 HSUS

I entered my Juniper in this contest. I lost him last year to Renal Kidney Failure. Every vote does cost $1 but all money is donated back to the shelters and rescue organizations that are holding a Spay Day 2010. So if you plan on making any donations this month, please consider this one and help my Bug help other pets get spayed and neutered so we can cut down on the unwanted pet population.

Here is his story (it's a long one, you might want to go the bathroom before you start or get a snack):

February 19, 2001

I went down to the city shelter a couple of weeks ago to drop off some cat litter that was given to me (not clumping so I don't use it) and was looking around at all the cutie dogs. There was an adorable Yorkshire Terrier there, so sweet and lovable.

The woman told me that he was visiting the area. His owner lives in PA and that some friends were watching him when he got away from them. She said the owner would be getting a big bill when he came back to get him. Turns out the dog has horrible teeth, needs major dental work and also has testicular cancer which the vet told her would be taken care of when he was neutered. The age on this dog is estimated to be anywhere from 4 to 8 years old. I didn't think too much else about it since he has an owner that would be coming for him.

I went back yesterday to drop off some newspapers for them and the little guy was still there! I asked what happened to the owner. I guess when he was told that he would have to pay for these medical treatments now and have them done or be checked up on 3 months to make sure the treatments were administered he told them to keep the dog! I couldn't beleive it!

I asked if there was anything I could do, donate money to his cause, etc. The lady told me that any money sent to the shelter is put into a general city fund and they never see it. The only thing I could do was either pay for the procedures and take the dog or help find him a home.

I can't afford to pay for the procedure (the neutering I could handle but not the dental) and I certainly can't take on another animal at this time, though is the the type of dog Terry keeps saying he wants.

So if there is anyone is this area that is willing to take on a sweetest little guy who needs a second chance at life, email me and I'll get more details for you if you want.

I'll try to get some pictures of him so you can see him.

Deannda
The lady there is cool, she is still looking for a home for him even though the odds are against her.

February 20, 2001
Okay, went to the shelter today to see the little Yorkie. His name is Juniper and I took pictures, the link is at the bottom.

The nice couple in CT is very excited about getting him, but I have to wait until tomorrow to talk to Helen at the shelter. It will be her decision if I can take him before the medical procedures are done. Speaking of which that will involve pulling all his teeth, they are all completely rotted out (and the people who had him were feeding him HARD food! grrr) and neutering him to stop the testical cancer from spreading.

I found out the previous owner did call and when was told that there was the usual fee for springing your dog out of the pound (only $10 here) there was also a $101 vet bill that had to be paid plus he would have to provide proof that the dog was going to get the medical attention that he needed. The owner's response? "Well, if someone else is willing to pay all that and then give him back to me." ARGH!!! I was so at a loss for words when I heard that.

So I went out, opened his cage and oooooh my GORD! He's was so lovable! He climbed on my chest and just shook. HE was so scared I would reject him. I got the pictures and then just cuddled with him for about 5-10 minutes and then FORCED myself to put him back and not run out the door with him. *sigh*

I came home, called Terry to let him know that he didn't have run errands for his Mom, I already did that. I never brought the dog up, but HE DID! He asked if I went over to the shelter, I told him yeah. I caught him up on what was happening and he made the comment, "Well, if they won't release him without getting the medical treatment first we do have that money we set aside for Vegas and since we aren't going now......" You know something? I didn't know I could love him anymore than I already did. And then, get this, he makes the comment that if the dog has to stay in our house for any time there's a good chance we will get to attached to him and won't want to let him go. I said, "No! I'm a foster mommy now. That is how I see myself and that is how I can deal with this. I won't let myself get that attached." You know what his comment was? "I wasn't talking about you."

My how things change. Who would have ever thought I would be the one who had to be the voice of reason when it came to the animals and the number of animals we have and the cost of the animals and the care of the animals? Certainly not me!

SO, anyhoo, I left a message for Helen to please find out what the costs would be and then I will check with the couple in CT to see if they are willing to pay for that before hand if the shelter won't release him without getting the medical treatment first. And try to figure out a way to keep Terry from actually meeting this dog until it's too late and he's already on his way to his new home. OY!

Deannda

February 21, 2001

Well, Juniper's future has been decided.

And guess where he's going.

I'll give you hint, Terry went to see him.

Deannda
Will be $364 poorer by tomorrow but he'll be worth it

Here are the original pictures
http://www.flickr.com/photos/11293826@N03/sets/72157601377898098/

Fast Forward 8 wonderful years later:

March 6, 2009

Take Good Care of my Bug Annie, kay?

::::Tissue alert:::

Today I sent you a very special little fellow, I’m sure you’ll remember him and know him on sight. Today I sent My Bug, Juniper to be with you and to wait for me at Rainbow Bridge.

As I'm sure you remember how fate brought us together 8 years ago. He was supposed to go to New Jersey but then...........

Then his future was decided when Terry went to meet him and called me all upset because they wouldn’t let him take Juniper that day because he still had to get shots. But come home he did to us on February 22, 2001. Skinny as can be, scared as can be but so ready to give and receive love.

Remember how the Pet Lovers came through for him, even though we could have handled the bills, people who I had never met stepped up and paid for all his medical bills and adoption fee. They all wished to remain anonymous but they all got a very lovely thank you note with a picture of Juniper.

I tried to keep my distance from him the first couple of weeks, remember, so he would bond to Terry. He was supposed to be Terry’s dog so I stayed away. But it didn’t work out to well, he drew me in like a moth to the flame only with much better results. It ended up with me saying to him all the time, “You are NOT my dog, but you can be my boyfriend.”

Juniper rarely left my side when I was home and if I was sitting down, he was right there. When I laid down he was right there, on my shoulder, under my arm, snuggling in for warmth and love.

He gained many nicknames over the past 8 years, here are a few for you to remember and call him by so he will feel even more love and welcomed. Bug was my favorite because he was tiny like a little bug, never did break that 4 pound barrier. A few others are Junibug, Jitterbug, Bug a Boo, Bubby and Hair ball (that was from his Aunt Trenna). He answers to all of them.

He blessed my life in so many ways, no matter where I took him, he was instantly adored and loved. More people offered him a home if for any reason I could not keep him. More people wanted to hold him, love him and take care of him. He was great with the kids at school and became the best hat (would curl around Terry’s head at night, looked like he was wearing a furry tan hat), scarf (loved laying across Melissa’s throat and keeping her warm when she was laying down) and Parrot Dog, could always be found perched on my shoulder when I was sitting or laying down. He brought together total strangers when we were in public, just because they wanted to pet him, hold him, love him. He was the best ambassador and representative for all the right reasons for adopting a shelter dog, especially an older on.

The only time he showed any aggression was shortly after James was born and he wasn’t sure about this new “dog” in the house but he quickly learned that the new “dog” was to be accepted and protected and he did that. He let James carry him around and play and love him as well before it was all done.

As he got older his eyesight started failing him, the once bright and beautiful eyes were becoming cloudy and gray but he still knew when ever I walked into the room and would always come flying to me from where ever he was. He didn’t run as quickly as he use to but he still came running until just a few days ago.

I had noticed he was slowing down, that his breath was not as pleasant as it should be, I knew something was going on but he never showed signs of slowing down until just last night and then today.

The part that really spooks me is the dream I had the other night where he was taken away from me and I couldn’t get him back, it was terrifying then and even more so now. And the fact that just the other day a lady at the school inquired about him and wondered if we had to find a new home for him as well since we moved and my comment was, “Juniper? OH GOD NO! Bug will die in my arms, I will never give him away.” Who knew my comments would come true in just a few short days.

Annie, we had 8 beautiful, wonderful and special years together on this planet. Eight years of love, laughter and sorrow. For 8 years he listened to me, let me cry into his fur, loved me when I felt no one else did, he was my best friend. He was by my side through all of it. Through the birth of my son at 40, through the failure of marriage, though the job changes, the life changes and never once complained or told me I was wrong.

Today I held him for the last time, I picked him up at 10:30 AM this morning and only let him go to get Melissa from school and so the kids could say their goodbyes. Today I told him, “Hey Bug, you know what, you win, you aren’t just my boyfriend but you are my dog and always have been from the first day I saw you. I love you Buggaboo.”

I held him when they wanted him weighed, he was down to 2 pounds 2 ounces. I held him when the doctor gave him a shot to help him sleep and stop his twitching and I held him in my arms when he took his last breath and his tiny heart beat it’s last beat. I held him for a few minutes and told him I loved him one more time and that I would always remember him.

So Annie, will you and Gussie please take extra good care of my little buddy? He will give you unconditional love and be more than happy to snuggle and keep a small area of your shoulder or head warm while he rests. He loves to run in the grass and absolutely adores belly rubs and when you rub his butt and tap it around. He loves treats and now that he is whole and healthy again, please give him that steak he’s been wanting for years, let him have anything he wants because he was the King of the Neuferland Zoo for 8 beautiful, wonderful and fantastic years. The King is dead and very much missed.

http://www.pbase.com/neuferland/juniper_and_lolli

Deannda
One very sad mommy

That was good!!!

Last night for dinner we had very fluffy pancakes, bacon, sausage links and scrambled eggs.  I didn't feel like taking a lot of time for dinner but then I forgot how interesting it can be to try to get everything to come out together at the same time, LOL! 

Well, Sir James loved it so much, he wants a repeat tonight!  This morning he asked very enthusiastically if we could have the same thing tonight, but without the eggs and bacon.  I said, "But I liked the eggs and bacon part."  He said, "Well, okay, if you really liked them but I only want the pancakes and the sausage.  That was really good sausage and you did real good on those pancakes."

Awwwww, shucks, thanks hun! :) 

One of the things I am trying very hard to do and have had to force myself on occasion is to make dinner for the kids and me and to sit down together and eat.  Somedays it's just to easy to tell them to grab a sandwich or make something on their own but then we lose out on that chance to sit, talk, and just be together, which is very important in today's world.  Put the phones away, turn off the television and just sit and talk and eat.  It's nice.  I make sure we do it at least 4-5 times a week.

And speaking of television, does anyone else was NCIS?  OMG!  Last night's show was awesome!  I figured out the ending on the plane and who the bad guy was but then the whole dialogue between Tony and Ziva!  WOOT!  Did they or didn't they?  I can bet the fan blogs are exploding today, LOL!

Well, time to head out, gotta pick up the middle child and her friend from the mall, then go get the oldest and run her around really quick before Elaine comes over, CRAP, Elaine is coming over!  I hope those kids got the chores done, LOL!

I have confessed my sins......

I told the teacher this morning when I came to school that I played hookie yesterday, no sense lying to her when it's easy to find out where I was with a quick web search.  And as usual there was a ton of talking this morning.  It happens every morning.  I finally, quietly mentioned it to the teacher and explained I can handle all the talking if it was about school related things but since most of it's personal, it honestly makes me uncomfortable.  I know way to much about these people's personal lives, more than I want to know.  She commented out loud that it's a matter of office chatter and keeping it professional.  Way to be discrete there Teach!  Oh well, I don't really care, I'm happy, back in a corner again, got headphones, will find some music and just block them out.  One woman here came over to ask if I was okay because I have my hoodie on with the hood pulled up tight.  She was very sweet, gave me a little card that says: Great strength comes from faith in God.   She's very sweet :)

I just finished my first article for Examiner.com and don't know exactly when it will show up, it's the first one so it has to be approved and then published.  Once I'm approved I can publish immediately.  I get paid by page views, subscribers, etc. so pass the information along and be sure to subscribe to the email so I can get more money, LOL :) 

I am going to go for now, maybe will write more later, must go find music to block out the personal chatter and opinions.

Just for Fun

LOL!  I wish!!! :)  I like doing these little things once in a while, it's a good little ego booster for when you're feeling a little down on yourself or just need to smile!

I played a bit of Hookie today

Today I played hookie with my girls.  Melissa had to take a final this morning and I was supposed to go to school. but it was raining pretty bad, even had flood warnings out and Melissa was going to have to walk home after her final (Ellie didn't have any today) and I got about 1/2 mile from the house and thought about all the times I had to walk the 1/2 mile to the bus stop and home on those really cold, snowy, rainy, just plain miserable days and I had to walk back and forth to the house.  Now we do live a mile from the school and she did have an umbrella but still......................So I called in sick and went back home, watched Monsters, Inc. with Ellie and then we went to get Melissa at 10:30 and then went to the mall to goof around.

It was a good day, a few tense moments but that's to be expected when you have 3 women together, LOL!   Both girls got new dresses at really good sale prices, they can use them for the Snowball if they want to go and for graduation, I told Ellie that we are dressing up, I didn't care if anyone else was, we were.

So it was a really nice day and I will go to school the rest of the week, it was just nice to spend a day with my girls. :)

Really bad Original Series on Starz

Okay, the other night I was bored, sitting home and saw that Starz Channel has a new original series called Spartacus.  Now, while I normally don't get to interested in these types of shows but there really wasn't anything else on of interest to me so I decided to check it out.

It is done in a gritty, grunge type style for the final editing and as the show progressed I started to wonder just how low a budget they had for the show.  The graphics and CGI was so poorly done, it looked like something I would do on my computer.  The slow motion that kept going on and on and on every time there were any graphic blood or sex scenes was so poorly done it just made me cringe. 

And the swearing, I never realized the Romans swore so much.   My Grandma Taylor had a bit of a mouth on her, dating sailors and all and I think even these guys would have made her blush.  It was really not necessary to have them dropping the F Bomb and calling each other names that most women reserve for their worst enemy.

There were many soft porn scenes in the show as well, very graphic and again, not very well done.  I don't know who did the directing or even who the actors are, nor did I care to find out, I didn't bother sticking around for credits because I just really didn't care.

And in the final fight scene in the arena the cutting off of legs and arms was again, so poorly done and then when the hero drove home the final stab to the last gladiator, the literal tidal wave of blood that spewed out behind him just literally made me laugh out loud, it was so bad.  And then when they cut back to the full shot of the arena, there was NO BLOOD in the sand, NONE!  It was really bad.  Really, really bad.  On a scale of one to ten, I would give this original series a -4, if I had to rate with stars, up to 5 for excellent, again, -3 stars, it was just really really bad.

Really bad, did I mention it was really bad? Seriously, unless you are a total geek who likes watching soft porn and really bad graphics, this is not a decent show in any manner.

Tired

of being the one who has to compromise, of being the one who as to accept, of being the one who has to deal with it all the time.  Tired of being the one who has to take the negative and make it positive, tired of nagging, tired of talking.  I'm just tired and don't want to play anymore.

Elevators the the people who ride them

The other morning, either this week or last, I honestly don't remember, I was flipping around the channels looking for something to watch, which is another post all in itself, over 300 channels and not a flipping thing to watch?  But anyway, I usually don't watch the morning talk shows unless someone I really, really like is going to be one and then, only for their segment.  But while flipping through the channels, I happened to stop on the Morning Show with Hoda and Kathy Lee.  Now first of all, I really CANNOT stand Kathy Lee, she just irritates the crap out of me, I can't explain why, she just does.  When she was with Regis, she bothered me and then she disappeared for a bit and I thought, "Thank you JESUS!"  But she came back, but again, not a big deal, like I said, rarely watch morning shows.  But this one morning I happened to stop on that channel and Kathy Lee and Hoda were talking about this, that and whatever when Kathy Lee made a comment about how she hates it when people that are getting off an elevator won't let her get on!  And I thought to myself, "Well duh lady, elevator etiquette says you should let the people getting off, GET OFF first, then you can get on the elevator, I thought everyone knew that.  Well, evidently, not everyone does.  I found this site: Elevator Rules that helps define elevator etiquette and from reading some of the posts, there are a lot of people who think they have the right to push, shove and walk all over anyone who gets in their way when it comes to boarding an elevator.  How rude!  So now I have another reason to dislike Kathy Lee, that and she really can't sing, I wish Simon would go have a talk with her, but it would more than likely fall upon tone deaf ears.

 Watched the Late Late Show with Craig Ferguson on Friday, he did a whole hour dedicated to Mythbusters and had Tory, Kari and Grant as his guests.  It was fun to watch, you could tell that Kari, Grant and Tory are not used to being interviewed, LOL!  And Kari looks FREAKING FANTASTIC after having her baby, Craig was having a hard time concentrating on the interview, LOL! :)

Well, it's a quiet night, Melissa is spending the night at a friend's house, they really seem to have so much in common and Ellie and James are with their dad, so I am here in my jammies, drinking my wine, and just goofing off on my computer and maybe watching some television, if I can find anything on, seriously, over 300 channels to chose from and nothing new or interesting to me to watch.......how sad! :)

How much we have grown

Literally!  This is me in the first or second grade, I'm not really sure, I'm thinking first.  And if I remember correctly, because this is one of those memories that stands out, my mother had given me and my sister perms the day before school pictures and then set our hair in rollers to sleep in over night, I hated sleeping in rollers, just no comfortable position could ever be found unless they were the foam rollers, which these were not.

I remember her getting us up early to fix our hair and I remember it looking very nice by the time we went to school and she had put a good can of hair spray on each of our heads so we would look so pretty for our pictures.

I remember by the time I got home my hair was straight and the perm was gone and she wasn't overly happy about it and I think she might have come to the realization that there was just no way you were ever going to get my hair to behave at that age, probably why we always got the pixie cuts when we were kids, easy to fix, nothing to muss up and no fighting about how to fix it.

And now my hair is back to that, does NOT want to behave stage, probably would help if I went and got it cut but I'm to lazy, cheap, and/or bored and just don't want to move right now.

Something I would like to touch upon today is...................................wow, right now I can't think of a thing.  See, told you I was lazy.  Think I shall take a shower, get dressed, go forth, find wine and come home and just relax today.  It is my day to chill.

Oh, I did get a lovely invitation in the mail to a free dinner and presentation for a wonderful opportunity to buy this fantastic software that COULD make me so much money on the internet with it's wonderful marketing techniques.  I kind of want to go, just to get out and have a free meal (the place it's being held has really good food, at least the last time I was there it did) and I can't find any hidden charges, just that they want you to buy the software, and I have two tickets and was thinking about who I could take with me.  And it dawned on me today, this is the perfect opportunity to teach Melissa about scams and empty promises and that there are no get rick quick promises or easy ways to get what you want.  So I think I shall make the reservations for me and her and it will give me a chance to teach her a very important lesson in life, give us some quality time and get a free meal!

So, that really is it for now unless something fantastic pops in my head and I just have the overwhelming urge to share!:)